Thursday, December 6, 2012

Vanity of Vanities; All Is Vanity

I woke up in a strange state of mind this morning.

I woke up thinking it was time to stop doing, that it was time to let go of those activities I consider worthwhile since they seem to give so little delight to anyone else. I woke up thinking it was time I surrendered to age, decrepitude, and eventual forgottenness.

Why trudge on?

Of course, having lived as long as I have, I know this is a natural feeling, perhaps nature's/the cosmos'/God's way of preparing us for coming changes. Maybe it's a cyclical thing, attuned to the seasons. It could be plain dysthymia. Or nothing more than my own reaction to the deep winter months couple with the mild anxiety of  mounting another play early next year.

Nevertheless, it is a real darkness; but not one to sleep through.

Why trudge on?

Some questions have no answers. The body does what it will to move on, to keep living.

So we go on.

And we walk through the night to another daybreak.


6 comments:

  1. You know, maybe this is cosmic, because I am feeling much the same way. On days like today, I put one foot in front of the other and try not to think too deeply. You have another play coming up. That will yank you right back into the world of DOING. In the meantime, just get through the seconds and let them add up to minutes, hours, days, weeks, all by themselves. Hugs.

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  2. We are two of a kind, huh, sista? To paraphrase my mama, we are a mess!

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  3. Chin up, you! We'll get by.

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  4. Don't be sad, go look at my psychedelic bats!

    https://plus.google.com/108873757943673151319/posts/BELBpyyEgNq

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  5. I know. This is one of those times I needed to take a walk. And I did! Activity! Activity makes a difference.

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  6. I did. Thank you. They remind me of what Christmas lights can look like when you wear those glasses that superimpose images of snowflakes or snowmen over the glow. Bobby bought a whole set [sic].

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