Season's Grievings

Sometimes you just want to lock yourself away and hibernate. This dark cloud always hovers over me during the holiday season.

It's a season of lacks and emptiness when one remembers the losses of all the years of one's long life. Family, friends, opportunities, chances, roads not taken.

It's the season when I invariably long for the gifts of detachment and self-sufficiency, of painlessness; when I long for dreamless sleep.

There are so many good-byes in a lifetime. And grief never ends. It becomes a part of us.

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